I am not a patient person. I wish I was. But I always seem to be anxiously waiting for the NEXT thing. I hear that’s normal and know a lot of people who feel the same but man I hate it. And don’t even get me started when there are the “maybes” of life that stand in front of you. I always want the answer NOW. I want to know where I’m going to be living in 3 months when my lease is up and I want to know if I’m going to still be working this job in 6 months and if I will ever find my dream job.
And dont get me started on the topic of guys. I don’t mind being single. I don’t have an unfilled life being alone. Sure I would LOVE to have that type of companionship and it is really lonely but I’m okay on my own. I WOULD like to know FOR SURE that I wont be alone forever. haha.
And….I would really love to know if this current little crush will develop into anything…that’s what inspired this post. My impatience of not knowing if this is ever going ANYWAY or even what he’s thinking. Instead of just enjoying the butterflies and excitement when I see him and the wondering of what his little flirting means and enjoying the moment… i’m desperately wanting to know if this will ever be more than this. I’m okay if it’s not and all we will be is friends and def WAY okay if it eventually developes into more. (hahaha…hello he’s hot and amazing and loves Jesus) I just WANT to know.
Sigh. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. Guess I should get use to it right? I’ll always be waiting for something in life. Oh patience when will I learn to embrace you?!
“And I could wait patiently but I really wish you would drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain, kiss me in the sidewalk…cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile, get me with those green eyes baby as the lights go down”
